It Crazy right? To Love Someone Who Hurt's u...

This was Just in my mind this few days... :

It's Crazy right ??

To Loves Someone Who Hurts You...

But,

It's is Crazier to think that...

Someone Who Hurts You Loves You...

Ya !! Maybe this is wat happend in my life...
Although  im not sure whether wat I think was true or not...
I feels tat his love for me was so deep...
tat's why he been so sensitive to everything about me...
I believes tat...  

I dun mind how sensitive was him...
but i just hope wat i say, trust me...pls...
dun mistaken me...

"Two Shall be as one...

Always TRUST...Always PROTECT...and Always Loves..."

But why ...??  why He hurts me so deep??
- What was in his mind ??
- Why he think me like tat ??
- When only he will TRUST me ?? 

All his words  was so ruthless...
Im not what he think in his mind...
no matter how i explained, he also wont accept...
wat should i do??

I admit tat I had hurts him before because of my ex...
I had done a big stupid mistake in the beginning...

3 years journey wth my ex...
Me and him planned our future before...open shop...everything...
Sudd just break I need so time to fully let him down ...
Its not easy, Its difficult for me...
But i still accept him tat time...

Because of some reasons...
1st 
- He love me, if i accp him...he will be happy..
2nd
- I can give a chance to myself to recover from tat condition, so tat i can begin a new life
- Stop myself to be emo and upsad of thinking about me ex...
3rd 
- My ex got some problem tat time...many stress...he dunno how to face all those problem..
( before tat everytime when he face problem, im the one who accompany him, and help him to settle..this time i also hope i could help him...)
- The only way i can help him is to recover is to reduce problem he need to face "let him let me down" 
- The only way to let me down is when I be anathor guy gf...)

【 Because of these 3 stupid thinking and reasons I accept him and hurts him !! 】
Somemore because of break up wth my ex, I learn how to drink...
Although i dunno how drink alcohol ...

But now I had change ald...completely changed...

I had try my best to be a good girl to him...
Tried so hard to find the best way to manage when he was angry...
I hope I could recuperate all the hurts tat I brought to him b4...
Be a good girl who treat him good and love him wth a true heart...

Juz ..... sometime i still will angry,
IM STILL A NORMAL HUMAN..............

Is it abnormal ??
to angry if someone didn listen to ur feeling??

Is it a attitude problem??
if u talk nicely in the 1st...but still nobody care about it and keeping on mistaken you wth his thinking??

I just need "understanding" only...when i say out my feelings ...
Someone who know me...
Someone who doen't mistaken me...
Tats enough...
Is it so hard ??
He was a person who understand me before...
but now...after i changed he also changed...

Even though how angry i am, but after a while i will say sorry...
But why..............??? why............
he cant see my changes at all.....

Now,
my heard was bleeding wth full of pain !!
my tears was flowing out from my eyes wthout any break !!
Every night sleep early, but cant sleep well...
Always awaken during midnight...
 
Do he love me?? actually...
i believe tat...
but i dunno...

Happiness was just so short...
my heart was break in pieces completely...
IMH...but i ntg i can do ald...wat i can do i had done...
pain in my heart...
bleeding in my heart...
But he wont noe...
Even though he knew he wont care , wont have my feeling at all...
revenging ?? hopes no....

maybe,,, he is crying now..
maybe... he is missing me now..
maybe... he also cant sleep well like me...
maybe... he still love me...
maybe.............................


Loves is hurts...
when love hurts it will bcome a horror nightmare !!